Just Once, Please.

It was Thursday when Ziyaad, Mohammed, Mr. Refaat and I met in the evening to watch the sunset and converse, as we left the plan for rest of the night to be decided later. The usual conversation then went from about life to almost all aspects; whether be it social, economical, political, educations, or anything you could possibly think of.

We then started talking about education once again. Mohammed is going to London School of Economics (LSE) to do his Masters in Global Politics, Mr. Refaat is going to Kent University to do his PhD in Comparative Literature, while I was still not sure about what should happen next. My mind starts to wonder off to three weeks ago, when I received an unconditional offer from the University of Westminster for a Masters degree in Business Intelligence and Analytics.

It was a sunny Friday when I received an email from the admissions office in the University of Westminster, telling me that the University has made an unconditional offer, for the previously mentioned course, starting in September 2011. This very email was the first ever to put me in tears. I was very happy that I’d finally made it half way through to the UK!

Three hours later, I applied to the scholarship, without which, I won’t be able to continue my education! All required papers were submitted. TOEFL and IELTS, full transcript, Résumé, etc. The scholarship sent a confirmation receipt by email a few hours later. I lean back and grab my cup of coffee with a wide smile. I felt so close to leaving Gaza for the first time in my life.

All of this flashed in front of my eyes in a fraction of a second, and I am back to reality when Mr. Refaat asked me: “So, Nader, for which scholarship did you apply?” With utmost courage I replied: “PEACE”. As soon as I said that, the whole atmosphere changed to absolute silence, which, in fact, terrified me a little bit and made me feel a bit uncomfortable, as I sensed something wrong. “What’s wrong?” I asked, breaking the silence, wanting to bring the old atmosphere back. “Nothing!” Mr. Refaat replied, stopped for second and continued, “Did you know that this is one of the highly competitive scholarships?”

Once again, my feelings were right. I knew something bad wass going to happen because nothing has ever gone right so far. Then Mr. Refaat continued, “I know many who have applied to this very scholarship and I believe that it is going to be highly competitive this year”, “Yeah, right” I said to myself and the topic changed somehow and we ditched this topic as it was time for Maghrib.

I spent fifteen minutes thinking of what Mr. Refaat had said over and over again and the more I thought about it, the more that creepy feeling got me. So I just decided to leave and go to the gym to release the depression and clear my mind at least for an hour.

It took me two whole days to recover from that shock. Also, thanks to my friends who have helped me through this. Without them, I wouldn’t have come to realize that I am a competitor and I deserve to get it for my rich work experience and academic excellence. I am not depressed anymore, but not getting the scholarship will be totally devastating.

If you happen to be or know someone in the scholarships office in the university, talk to them about my case please. Otherwise, just pray I get it. Help me help make the world a better place.

Nader K.

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About Nader Elkhuzundar

Nader Elkhuzundar is a commentator on Palestinian affairs and Co-founder of Beyond Compromise (www.beyondcompromise.com). Elkhuzundar occasionally freelances for The Guardian, International Business Times, and others. He's a social media enthusiast and tech savvy with particular interest in new technologies and analytics, and enjoys reading over Arabic coffee and dark chocolate.
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21 Responses to Just Once, Please.

  1. Reham says:

    I Will for sure pary for you !

  2. Reham says:

    Thanks Nader but its nothing !!

  3. May Allah Subhana wa Ta’ala grant you this scholarship or even a better one, and all the increase your knowledge, blessings and skills to make you succeed in life and the Afterlife. Allahumma Ameen ya Rabbil’Alameen.

    (you’re in my adi’yeh shabab!)

    Wa Salaam ‘ Alaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu, occpal

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  5. 48Refugee says:

    in shaa Allah you get it, keep making du3a2 and tell yourself that it will only happen if it is best for you and then you will be able to deal with whatever response you get from them. either way, getting into the university is a great accomplishment you should be proud of and you should look into local organizations that sponsor scholarships too so you have an alternative if the “peace” scholarship doesn’t come through

    • Nader K. says:

      Inshallah. The thing is, I couldn’t find any local sponsors. I’ve heard there’s no/little local sponsors and they require a very high GPA and with loads of conditions. Inshallah kheir

  6. Dr_Sarsora says:

    oh, i hope that you would be blessed enough to get this great chance inch-allah, I’ll pray for you … keep it high

  7. Layla says:

    Inshallah everything will go well… You mentioned in the last paragraph “I wouldn’t have come to realize that I am a competitor and I deserve to get it for my rich work experience and academic excellence”, If you do get the scholarship ( inshallah you will) I am sure you will go very far with that education… but if you don’t get the scholarship (inshallah that will not happen) you still have that experience and academic excellence that so many lack even in western country’s and every bump in the road on a journey in education, teaches far more then a classroom (meaning the experience alone).. IInshallah you will get the scholarship and do wonderful! I will do du’aa for you.

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  12. palestine says:

    wish u the best,may allah be on your side .

  13. EtharElhinamy says:

    am already making Dua for u ,insha’Allah u’ll be granted this scholarship,u truly deserve it insha’Allah

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