It has been a while since I have started doing things alone more often. By things, I mean the things that people usually do with the company of other people like going out to dine, to drink, to walk, and so on. I don’t see anyone and I don’t go out with anyone but myself. I tend to have created my own world where I interact with other people through a screen and I’m gradually applying this approach on real life as I communicate with people I come across. Those of you who know me personally know that I’m very helpful and very giving, I tend to overthink, over-analyse, and favour people over myself. A thing that has been putting me only closer to my destruction, I would say.
I read a lot on why would someone choose oneself and live in solitude rather than living [in harmony] with other people, how would it feel to be alone and with no or little interaction with others, how to stop caring too much, how not to waste so much time and effort and how to stop following my heart but rather my instinct and mind, amongst many other things. As a result, I decided to stop caring too much and giving everything I have for the sake of others. If I’m asked for help or a favour and it’s beyond my power, I won’t do it. I won’t run that extra mile for you. I will run it for myself. I’m not going to waste my time on sensitive ass bitches who cry for help as soon as something happens because if you don’t stand up for yourself, nobody will. As simple as that!
I live one life, and I always aim at the top because being like someone else is a waste of time. I work hard to be the best at what I do, not just someone good or excellent; the best. I used to run away from hard work, postpone it, and always prefer the easy way until I woke up and realised that the saying “easy come, easy go” is so true it could wipe everything in a blink of an eye. Success is not a product we buy off-the-shelf at the pharmacy or the supermarket. It’s a mix of sweat, blood, and tears. It’s the power of will that resides within. Success is that lone voice that always tells us that we can do it when everyone is screaming, “you can’t”.
Living in solitude saves me so much time and effort to focus on myself to become who I want to be; a stronger, and more determined man. I don’t have time for naysayers, and people who only contact me when they’re in need. I’m not saying that I’m going to be selfish but I have wasted so much time and energy on so many people I crossed path with and I only ended up regretting doing every good deed to help them and have decided to not live that anymore.
Am I happily living in solitude?
No, I’m not. And I’m not living like this for the rest of my life. I’m moving forward, changing the rules of the game in which, others have found me always available. It’s time I focus on myself. If you need my help, I’ll still be there only if you’ve always been there for me because, you see, “what goes around, comes around”.
“You can’t climb the ladder of success with your hands in your pockets” – Arnold Schwarzenegger.