It was too late when I have realized so many things I have been seeing for the past God knows how many days if not years. Life is not what you make out of it or the chances you’ve seized or missed. Life is so much more complex for anyone in this life to define or understand. Every decision we make has consequences, and each and every one of that, plays a role in our lives regardless to the size of it.
I can’t even begin to describe how much disappointed of literally everything I see or hear. Human beings are too complicated to be understood; not even your spouse. Feelings, emotions, words, and everything else is still undefined.
Two different worlds, one is solely dependent on the other while the other one is independent in itself. Or maybe both are interdependent. Staying away, right there in that dark small corner. A world full of sorrow, blood and tears and another full of good companionship, brotherhood and ground standing. A difference gab so big to live in the first without the other, so difficult to live in the second where it solely depends on the first.
Best friends are worst enemies. Countless are the stories of enemies becoming good friends. It is easy to define who is a friend and whom you can call a friend but on the other hand, it is so difficult to find a true one as well as maintaining this friendship no matter what hardships friends might go through.
Friendship is built on understanding, loyalty, appreciation, respect and the list goes on forever and a true friend is who would do their best to stay your friend unless it is unforgivable. Trust is one pillar of friendship, but also keep in mind that you would lose this friend if you trust them blindly. I am not saying that you should not trust your friend, but trust them enough to the point where you realize that each and every one has a different way of thinking and looking at things (since it’s personal perspective which is unique) and realizing that your friend is a human being at the end of the day.
Frankly speaking, there is nothing in this world that can ruin a strong friendship like money and women do and in spite of how strong your friendship with a woman is, your friendship with a man is way too much stronger. As for money, all I can say is that a handful of dollars not only can ruin friendship, but a whole nation.
Losing a best friend to either factor is totally devastating. In fact, losing a friend to whatever reason is, let alone a best friend. Makes one realize how cruel a person can be slamming it all against the wall for a woman. A woman so evil, taking advantage of someone’s kind heart and sincerity, to set up a fight between two best friends resulting a complete loss to one, and nothing but a mouthful swear words, finger signs etc.
When you rise up every one wants to catch up with you, but when you fall, you fall alone. Though people would notice your bruises, they wouldn’t do anything but pray for you and tell you how lucky you are that you ended up this way then tell you a probably made-up story that sounds worse than yours so you would end up feeling better, or sometimes tell you to pray or thank God because you are still alive after all. But what if the person you are telling this to is an atheist? What if this person follows some religion but doesn’t practice? Why would someone put religions and Gods in the middle of everything? Why would someone mention the merciful, loving God when this person sees nothing in life that would make him at least smile?
This whole life is really sickening me to the core realizing the fact that I can no longer take anything anymore. Well many have tried or said they will. I don’t know what they did or are doing to help but I haven’t seen anything with my own eyes. Don’t get me wrong but I am tired of hearing people feeling sorry for me and saying that I need to leave Gaza because I deserve a better life standard or whatever.
Feeling sorry for someone isn’t going help the case at all. Saying that God is testing my patience by putting me under all this pressure and shitty circumstances are a waste of both, words and time. Telling me that I should pray and work on my relationship with God isn’t any different.
Words don’t help the case, any case nor do anything good. Words are something we stuff this space with trying in a way or another make the other party feel better. At the end of the day, everything is still the same. Actions speak louder than words.
Someone would say “Pray and God will ease it for you”, breaking news: God doesn’t pay us to pray.