It was too late when I have realized so many things I have been seeing for the past God knows how many days if not years. Life is not what you make out of it or the chances you’ve seized or missed. Life is so much more complex for anyone in this life to define or understand. Every decision we make has consequences, and each and every one of that, plays a role in our lives regardless to the size of it.

I can’t even begin to describe how much disappointed of literally everything I see or hear. Human beings are too complicated to be understood; not even your spouse. Feelings, emotions, words, and everything else is still undefined.

Two different worlds, one is solely dependent on the other while the other one is independent in itself. Or maybe both are interdependent. Staying away, right there in that dark small corner. A world full of sorrow, blood and tears and another full of good companionship, brotherhood and ground standing. A difference gab so big to live in the first without the other, so difficult to live in the second where it solely depends on the first.

Best friends are worst enemies. Countless are the stories of enemies becoming good friends. It is easy to define who is a friend and whom you can call a friend but on the other hand, it is so difficult to find a true one as well as maintaining this friendship no matter what hardships friends might go through.

Friendship is built on understanding, loyalty, appreciation, respect and the list goes on forever and a true friend is who would do their best to stay your friend unless it is unforgivable. Trust is one pillar of friendship, but also keep in mind that you would lose this friend if you trust them blindly. I am not saying that you should not trust your friend, but trust them enough to the point where you realize that each and every one has a different way of thinking and looking at things (since it’s personal perspective which is unique) and realizing that your friend is a human being at the end of the day.

Frankly speaking, there is nothing in this world that can ruin a strong friendship like money and women do and in spite of how strong your friendship with a woman is, your friendship with a man is way too much stronger. As for money, all I can say is that a handful of dollars not only can ruin friendship, but a whole nation.

Losing a best friend to either factor is totally devastating. In fact, losing a friend to whatever reason is, let alone a best friend. Makes one realize how cruel a person can be slamming it all against the wall for a woman. A woman so evil, taking advantage of someone’s kind heart and sincerity, to set up a fight between two best friends resulting a complete loss to one, and nothing but a mouthful swear words, finger signs etc.

When you rise up every one wants to catch up with you, but when you fall, you fall alone. Though people would notice your bruises, they wouldn’t do anything but pray for you and tell you how lucky you are that you ended up this way then tell you a probably made-up story that sounds worse than yours so you would end up feeling better, or sometimes tell you to pray or thank God because you are still alive after all. But what if the person you are telling this to is an atheist? What if this person follows some religion but doesn’t practice? Why would someone put religions and Gods in the middle of everything? Why would someone mention the merciful, loving God when this person sees nothing in life that would make him at least smile?

This whole life is really sickening me to the core realizing the fact that I can no longer take anything anymore. Well many have tried or said they will. I don’t know what they did or are doing to help but I haven’t seen anything with my own eyes. Don’t get me wrong but I am tired of hearing people feeling sorry for me and saying that I need to leave Gaza because I deserve a better life standard or whatever.

Feeling sorry for someone isn’t going help the case at all. Saying that God is testing my patience by putting me under all this pressure and shitty circumstances are a waste of both, words and time. Telling me that I should pray and work on my relationship with God isn’t any different.

Words don’t help the case, any case nor do anything good. Words are something we stuff this space with trying in a way or another make the other party feel better. At the end of the day, everything is still the same. Actions speak louder than words.

Someone would say “Pray and God will ease it for you”, breaking news: God doesn’t pay us to pray.

Nader K.

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About Nader Elkhuzundar

Nader Elkhuzundar is a commentator on Palestinian affairs and Co-founder of Beyond Compromise (www.beyondcompromise.com). Elkhuzundar occasionally freelances for The Guardian, International Business Times, and others. He's a social media enthusiast and tech savvy with particular interest in new technologies and analytics, and enjoys reading over Arabic coffee and dark chocolate.
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  1. Mariya says:

    The harsh reality is.. at the end of the day, you are alone. Only yourself can you trust and rely on wholeheartedly. In time you may gain the most loyal and understanding friend in the world, and I sincerely hope you do, but even he/she will have limits. And yet, life goes on – no choice.

    You really are a talented writer. <3

  2. Jenn says:

    It is true that life is much more complex than most realize.. Many don’t have the luxuries of a good upbringing where there is little struggle, let alone have to deal with the incredible hardships related to living in a place where you are not free. People often use God as a crutch when the only real thing they have is themselves. Praying solves nothing and doesn’t help you when you’re told to do so. You are all you have, unless of course you Are able to find that truly special and extremely rare type of best friend.
    I don’t think that all women however, can be viewed in the same ways. Personally, my best friend in the world has been for over 16 years and he and I are (if we believed in the soul) soul-mates. I would die instantly to save him and give up anything for him, without hesitation. I, being a woman; would never try to manipulate the situation or do anything but give our friendship the highest value of my life. He is the best person I have ever known and I wouldn’t have survived my horrific previous life without him. I think as far as the woman goes, it all depends on the individual and their ethics. But then again, I am often told that I am not like many females.

    Words are meaningless without sincerity behind them and those people that are not sincere are worthless. Unfortunately, there are more fake people than not (whether male or female)..

    I heard a saying that was something like; if you die with just one good friend by your side, then you are of the luckiest of peoples. Because in this life, we are alone and will always be alone, unless you’re lucky enough to find someone who amazes you in such a way that changes your life forever. But even then, when you die you are still alone, .. even trapped within yourself.

    (we can go into details more via email), but I had many uncommon and horrific early life experiences growing up and I know we are alone like I know nothing else. I know we die alone and that there is no afterlife or God to help us. But those things comfort people and I believe everyone should believe as they wish, whatever helps them through life and to be a good person.

    All we can hope for, is to be the best person we can and help others and progress continue in a positive and fair fashion. But don’t rule-out the woman… we are not all alike. 🙂 so it’s okay to have some hope for the very few and rare individuals that will value you in a way that is unlikely in this cruel world…(whether male or female).. but I’m guessing in your culture, it’s less likely to become super close friends with women that live near you?..I’m not very certain about that however.

    You are a great writer and I very much appreciate this post. It’s great getting to know you and I will be reading through your entire blog history this and next week for my class. I’ll let you know how it goes.

    Take care, Nader..
    – Jenn

    • Nader K. says:

      I guess I haven’t clarified a few things throughout the post here. Stereotyping women wasn’t and isn’t an aim. All what’s written is influenced by first hand experience and I am in no place to judge or stereotype anybody on the face of this planet.

      I agree with what you’ve said to an extent. However, I would rather not to put God in this because again, it’s not going to do us any good. Being realistic is key.

      Thank you so much for your comment and I am glad to know about what you’re doing. I hope you find what you’re looking for in my blog. Enjoy the read, please!

      • Jenn says:

        Thanks. I think then you’re writing about how money and women can get in-between things or friendships.. from experiences.
        Being realistic through examining what does and doesn’t do us any good is a great idea… which I should remember. I guess I can get a bit carried away with certain ideas sometimes. I have to remember that if it doesn’t do us any good, then there’s no point.

        And now I shall read and explore!
        I will be doing a 5 min oral presentation Friday.. Then I will write a paper due in Dec

  3. Falastiniyeh says:

    ya khayee I cannot say I understand what you’re going through .Allah y3enku w y3een all the oppressed people in and out of Gaza. Iwant to respond to “God doesn’t pay us to pray.” Insha’Allah Jannah will be the most rewarding thing one can have. For now in this dunya, we have 2 eyes, 2 ears, 2 legs etc al7amdilaah . aham shi a clear mind. The richest and most beautiful don even have raa7it baal. twakkal 3ala Allah that insa’Allah things will get better … we all have those days where we just don’t give a damn and want to rant #Allhyi7meekun

    btw your English is wonderful mashallah! how did you lear to speak so perfect? =)

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